About Masters Rd & the last 6 months.

Sometimes things are not always as they appear.
I've never worried much about the collapsing parts of life; i've just become immaculate at how to prepare for the storm.
Batten down the hatches.
Call the rental people.
Tell them you need to leave.

Pack the boxes. Breathe.
Call your people.
By the way,
your people are not the ones who chase you down the road drunk and carry you home against your will,
when you climb out the window to run.
They're not the ones who might hold you hostage in a hotel room all night
where you consider weather you should fight, or flight.
As if fighting or running were even options,
when your choking, and drowning in your tears,
under the weight of a monster.

Speaking of which, my last relationship taught me to always keep a good pair of running shoes near.
It taught me honesty is not always a two way street.
Especially when I somehow found myself living in a lie;
mistaking a monster for a man.
Telling all my real people beautiful, convincing lies
so they don't say, what I already knew.
RUN.

When flighting becomes your only option
you hide with your people.
Make a sanctuary out of a bedroom.
Teach your girls that your never as stuck as you might feel.
What's for right now, isn't forever.
Sleep. A lot.
Just pretend you're camping, but then, when that gets old;
Breathe.
Rebuild.
Buy a new couch.
Buy a new bed.
Buy a new car.
Go home.
Remember the feeling of what a home should feel like.
Burn whatever is left.
Learn to trust again.
Fall in love.
Wear Heels.
Leave your runners at home.
Rise from the ashes.
Look for your rainbow.

I quit.

Sometimes in life, you gotta shake things up a bit. Things have a way of turning stagnant. I've been thinking a lot about the importance of embracing the fear of change, because that's where you find beautiful beginnings.

So, I recently quit my job and moved out of my apartment, all in one day.

I'm a month deep into this new chapter, and I have never felt happier. It's strange how much worry precedes change. It's so easy to get caught up in worry and wondering what people will think. Let it go. Trust. I've so often not done that-thing-I-wanna-do because of fear or not wanting to let people down. It's sad to think of how many things could have been different in my life, had I the courage to follow my heart.

Here's to letting my heart lead, in yoga and in life.

So here I am, in my new home, embracing change, and family, and love.

OM.